bullshit rant.

I don't understand why people do the stupid things they do.
You've been lucky thus far, why push it? I'm never going to get the answer to that question and I'm just going to have to deal with that. I don't understand how you can be so selfish to hurt everyone around you. You're going to devastate everyone that loves you even more than you already have. Your family has stood by you through all of your bullshit, they've supported you and done everything to make YOU feel better. What have you done for them besides mess them up, destroy their trust for you put them through hell and I'm sure its only going to get worse.

No one asked for this. No one asked for their lives to be destroyed by your selfish, arrogant actions. You're an adult its about time that you started acting like one and think of someone else besides yourself for a change.

You are a terrible excuse for an human being. You're not a man, you're a bratty child and you deserve to get caught. You've burned many bridges and I don't know that you care, but you're going to have to try really fucking hard to regain that trust. I will never look at you the same again. I don't know if I'll ever see you again because of this. I am so angry with you, I don't know how to deal with it. Any relationship that we once had is gone. That is devastating enough. Now your actions have made me trust you even less and even more angry.

I'm done. I can't keep being devastated every time someone talks about you. I'm done crying. Hopefully one day I won't be angry anymore either.

I hope you get caught and I hope you get the book thrown at you.

There is no season or weather in California.

I miss the rain, it hasn't rained (really) since we've been here.

It's going to be a long time until I get what is mine.

With all of my music gone, including my full Ipod it's time to start over. All the CDs that were on my Ipod are home in Canada. So after being without a computer for a year,with an ipod for months; it's finally time to start listening to music all the time, again. It's time to start over, fresh beginning. I'm psyched.

Thus far today I've been into
Deer Tick - War elephant
TV on the Radio - Dear Science,
Regina Spektor - Far
Neil Young - Harvest Moon
Foreign Born - On the Wing Now

I want to listen to everything all at once and be wrapped up in the wonderfulness.

...I don't even know what to say. All I'm going to say is this, I know way more than you think. And my heart is broken.

Dear Zachary

I just watched Dear Zachary. I am so in awe that this actually happened. It starts as a filmed letter to Andrew Bagby's son, Zachary (born after his death). And turns into atrocities of the Canadian Justice system. It starts and ends with love. The bagby family has so much class and grace and I have no idea how they've survived so much heartbreak.
It is heart breaking and unbelievable. I have no words to describe Dear Zachary.

Go see it then buy the book.Dance with the Devil by David Bagby

There are no words.

Dramaz

So much drama at work. Everyone hates everyone and talks behind everyone else's back. Everyone has an issue with everyone else and it covers everything from their work performance to their personal lives to what they wear. Everyone is so hyper-critical of everything everyone else does.

Person A hates person B. Person A is a bitch to Person B and has never taken the chance to get to know person B.
Person C hates person A and bitches about their know-it-all attitude.
Person D and Person B get along great, maybe its a mutal hate of person A.
Everyone hates Person E.
Person F "tries" not to get involved but really starts shit and judges everyone with a questionable ethic.
Person G doesn't understand Person D and there for doesn't like them. Person H and I don't really get involved as well as person J.
Person K is a whole other story.
This is what I've picked up so far, there is way more but I don't really feel like getting into it.

This is by far the WORST working environment I've experienced, the most bitchy, back-stabbing and filled with those only looking out for themselves. There is no sense of camaraderie. Someone told me that I'd hate working in a salon, how right they were. I'd love to go into further details but I won't.

Bitches bitches bitches!

And end rant.

Quake

About half an hour ago, I felt my first earthquake. My sister-in-law felt it up in Santa Clarita too, I had no idea they could be felt so far.
Even though it was only little here, it was SO scary. It felt like I was very disoriented, so weird.
The ground isn't supposed to move!