Read her diary on her sheets

bullshit rant.

2009-07-14T13:27:00.000-07:00

I don't understand why people do the stupid things they do.
You've been lucky thus far, why push it? I'm never going to get the answer to that question and I'm just going to have to deal with that. I don't understand how you can be so selfish to hurt everyone around you. You're going to devastate everyone that loves you even more than you already have. Your family has stood by you through all of your bullshit, they've supported you and done everything to make YOU feel better. What have you done for them besides mess them up, destroy their trust for you put them through hell and I'm sure its only going to get worse.

No one asked for this. No one asked for their lives to be destroyed by your selfish, arrogant actions. You're an adult its about time that you started acting like one and think of someone else besides yourself for a change.

You are a terrible excuse for an human being. You're not a man, you're a bratty child and you deserve to get caught. You've burned many bridges and I don't know that you care, but you're going to have to try really fucking hard to regain that trust. I will never look at you the same again. I don't know if I'll ever see you again because of this. I am so angry with you, I don't know how to deal with it. Any relationship that we once had is gone. That is devastating enough. Now your actions have made me trust you even less and even more angry.

I'm done. I can't keep being devastated every time someone talks about you. I'm done crying. Hopefully one day I won't be angry anymore either.

I hope you get caught and I hope you get the book thrown at you.

There is no season or weather in California.

2009-07-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

I miss the rain, it hasn't rained (really) since we've been here.

It's going to be a long time until I get what is mine.

2009-07-04T20:52:00.001-07:00

With all of my music gone, including my full Ipod it's time to start over. All the CDs that were on my Ipod are home in Canada. So after being without a computer for a year,with an ipod for months; it's finally time to start listening to music all the time, again. It's time to start over, fresh beginning. I'm psyched.

Thus far today I've been into
Deer Tick - War elephant
TV on the Radio - Dear Science,
Regina Spektor - Far
Neil Young - Harvest Moon
Foreign Born - On the Wing Now

I want to listen to everything all at once and be wrapped up in the wonderfulness.

2009-06-23T10:54:00.000-07:00

...I don't even know what to say. All I'm going to say is this, I know way more than you think. And my heart is broken.

Dear Zachary

2009-06-17T19:08:00.000-07:00

I just watched Dear Zachary. I am so in awe that this actually happened. It starts as a filmed letter to Andrew Bagby's son, Zachary (born after his death). And turns into atrocities of the Canadian Justice system. It starts and ends with love. The bagby family has so much class and grace and I have no idea how they've survived so much heartbreak.
It is heart breaking and unbelievable. I have no words to describe Dear Zachary.

Go see it then buy the book.Dance with the Devil by David Bagby

There are no words.

Dramaz

2009-06-15T20:33:00.000-07:00

So much drama at work. Everyone hates everyone and talks behind everyone else's back. Everyone has an issue with everyone else and it covers everything from their work performance to their personal lives to what they wear. Everyone is so hyper-critical of everything everyone else does.

Person A hates person B. Person A is a bitch to Person B and has never taken the chance to get to know person B.
Person C hates person A and bitches about their know-it-all attitude.
Person D and Person B get along great, maybe its a mutal hate of person A.
Everyone hates Person E.
Person F "tries" not to get involved but really starts shit and judges everyone with a questionable ethic.
Person G doesn't understand Person D and there for doesn't like them. Person H and I don't really get involved as well as person J.
Person K is a whole other story.
This is what I've picked up so far, there is way more but I don't really feel like getting into it.

This is by far the WORST working environment I've experienced, the most bitchy, back-stabbing and filled with those only looking out for themselves. There is no sense of camaraderie. Someone told me that I'd hate working in a salon, how right they were. I'd love to go into further details but I won't.

Bitches bitches bitches!

And end rant.

Quake

2009-05-17T21:13:00.000-07:00

About half an hour ago, I felt my first earthquake. My sister-in-law felt it up in Santa Clarita too, I had no idea they could be felt so far.
Even though it was only little here, it was SO scary. It felt like I was very disoriented, so weird.
The ground isn't supposed to move!

work update

2009-05-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

told I look like shit. Not just my face and hair this time, but my clothes. fml

2009-05-08T23:09:00.001-07:00

Dear work,
Thank you for existing. I like money. However you are beginning to give me a complex. Because of you I have worry so much about what I'm going to wear, how to do my hair, and what make-up to wear. Being pretty much told I'm a mess is starting to take it's toll. It has taken me 24 years to finally feel good about myself and in 1 week about 50% of the confidence is gone.

My second day of training I was told I need a make-over. I don't wear enough make-up and my hair needs to be fixed. It's hard not to take harsh criticism personally, especially when you hear it everyday. Everyone is now in on it, it's pretty hard to go into work and be in a good mood when you're being judged and you know it. What I would have considered looking cute a week ago I'm told looks bad. I don't really want to dye my hair because my hair is natural. I don't want to look like a california girl, they wear too much make up.

I worry about what I'm going to wear everyday. I never really got an answer as to what was appropriate or not. If I don't have an outfit picked out before I go to sleep, I'll be restless all night. I don't know how long I can do this for, but I don't want to be a quitter. Ugh I'm going to bed, hopefully tomorrow I won't be told I suck at life.

Maybe I'm just too sensitive...
Sincerely,

Miss Thinking-about-quitting.

2009-04-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

Dear Mexico,
Thank you for the Swine Flu, I look forward to meeting it personally. If I happen to encounter it personally, I will not be pleased and will send you the bill.
Sincerly,
Mrs. Likes-to-be-pork-disease-free

Are the idiots multiplying?

2009-04-18T18:23:00.001-07:00

Stranger on the corner of University and 5th, across the street from the Hillcrest sign
"What city are we in?"
"San Diego" (the obvious answer)
"No we aren't. It starts with an 'H'"
"Hillcrest in a neighborhood in San Diego."
"Hillcrest isn't San Diego."
I walk away.

For your knowledge...

2009-04-17T23:22:00.000-07:00

The term is social PARIAH NOT social piranha.
Calling someone a social PARIAH is not a good thing. Now I'm unsure what a social piranha is, but it's probably not a good thing either.
Idiot.

broken butt

2009-04-17T17:28:00.000-07:00

I've started running pretty regularly again. I'm enjoying it, gradually increasing the distance.
Good stuff, until today.
I'm running my usual run except on the other side of the street, starting to get my heart rate up, about half a mile in and I get a excruciating pain in the back of my thigh/butt. Being the dumbass that I am, I kept going, maybe another quarter mile hoping it would just go away. No such luck. Walking it out, nothing.
I hobbled home, defeated, pissed off and in a ton of pain!
It hurts so effing bad! It's a good thing I don't have any stairs to climb or I'd be done for! Right now I'm heating the little bugger.
So pissed.

drools...

2009-04-15T21:41:00.000-07:00

No word of a lie, I have dreams about Dior. John Galliano sure makes some BEAUTIFUL clothes.
This makes life so much more fun. I wish I could dress like this everyday!

AMAZING!

If someone would like to buy me these lovely Collette Dinnigan Spring 09 Outifts, I promise to never take them off!

Also, I am so in love with Gianfanco Ferre's Spring 09 RTW Collection.

The heels of the shoes I think are my favorite part. Like a little bonus for being fancy!

If I had dolla dolla billz I'd wear nothing but Jean Paul Gaultier (and stop saying dolla dolla billz). So effing stunning.

I remember being 6 years old watching Fashion File on TV and being amazed by JPG.
Photos from Style.com

pity-party for 1

2009-04-11T21:36:00.000-07:00

Haven't updated in a while. Haven't had a reason to.

Lonely and homesick doesn't make for entertaining entries.
We spend no more than 4 hours together awake most days. The rest of the time I'm alone.
Doing nothing.
I don't start work for another 2 weeks.
I've stopped making dinner because I'm the only one here.
I don't know anyone here, and don't go out.
oh well what can you do.

Little crushed, very heart broken.

2009-04-03T06:18:00.000-07:00

I have very fond memories of playing at my grandparent's house in Ontario. Walking to the river to go swimming, eating wild berries on the way. Going downtown for the chip wagon. Playing with swords and canes in the basement. Sitting in the glider with my grandpa while he read me stories. Sitting on the couches upstairs, getting yelled at for putting my feet on the furniture. Running around the basement playing hide n seek with my cousins while being afraid of the laundry room. Riding bikes, playing catch. Pretty normal memories I think. I saw my first humming bird at their house, my grandpa pointed it out.
I'm never going to have any of those experiences again. My grandma sold her house and moved to Alberta. Never again will I swim in the Ottawa River, eat the berries in the back yard, hide in the basement. And most importantly, or upsettingly I will never rock in the glider again.

When my Grandpa died a few years ago, I told my Granny that if she moved and downsized, or in her will the ONLY thing that I would like is the glider chair from the basement. I didn't want antiques or money or anything else, just a chair from the basement. The only thing in that house that I had fond memories of. I really didn't think that was asking for a lot.
When my Granny moved to Alberta, she left her house with her cleaning lady. That was about a year ago. Now she has sold her house and about a month ago, my parents went to go clean out the house, take what everyone in the (extended) family wanted and donate the rest to goodwill. When they arrived, the cleaning lady had already taken some things and my Granny had already told people they could take what they wanted. The basement was empty. The glider was gone.
Logically I knew that I wasn't going to get the chair, but I still had some hope. I tried not to get my hopes up but I thought for sure that my Granny would have thought about other people's feelings. My mom had even mentioned it to her sister that my Granny is living with.

I can't express how much one stupid chair meant to me. I have very few memories of actually spending time with my Granny and Grandpa. They weren't around very much while I was growing up. I saw them maybe one week every 2 or 3 years. Loosing my Grandpa suddenly, unexpectedly was so hard and I just wanted to have a little piece of something we shared. I really didn't think that was too much to ask.

I remember the last time I saw him, it will also be the last time I see my Granny. As for as I'm concerned BOTH of my mom's parents are dead. They both died that day in Florida. This is just the icing on the cake of horrible, inconsiderate things that she has done. I know I shouldn't say such things but its true. If she didn't want to be a part of our lives thats fine, but she has taken away one thing that meant so much to me. I guess I shouldn't have expected things to go any differently.
At least my kids won't have deal with grandparents like this. If my mother did this to my children I would probably fly to where ever she lives and slap her.

giggles.

2009-04-01T13:24:00.001-07:00

ponder....

2009-03-25T18:02:00.000-07:00

If I top a salad with cookies, is it still good for me?
Of course it is.

Oh Canada

2009-03-23T18:54:00.000-07:00

Every Canadian girl dreams of marrying a log driver.

Sigh... Home sick.

Fing show at U-31

2009-03-18T23:54:00.000-07:00

Tonight the boys from the shop and I went to the Fing show at U-31. I had never been to a fing show before, nor did I really know who they were. Fing is played at the shop and I had no idea who they were but always enjoyed the music when it was on.
I didn't know they were playing until a few hours before the show. I had nothing better to do and always like a show with the potential for dancing, so off we went!

We got to U-31 during whatever band was opening for them. Fing went on around 10:15 or so. It was Chris' (The keyboarders) last show as hes moving, or maybe second last? I don't really know the details as I didn't know who they were 6 hours ago.
They went on, their set was pretty short but pretty fucking sweet. I got my dance on a tiny bit, which I'm always down for. I wish their set was like a million times longer, or maybe just another half an hour.

I don't really know the names of any of the songs, but the pirate song was GREAT! Actually all of it was great. I had such a awesome time!

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Boobs and Bacon!

2009-03-17T21:33:00.001-07:00

Sign me up for this bad boy.
Thanks Amber!

yays and nays

2009-03-16T14:54:00.000-07:00

+Mission Beach fun times
+La Jolla tide pools
+Ice cream
+Thai food
+Art shows
+Girl shoes
+Sun tans
+House guests
+

I never saw a lizard before, he let me photograph him.

-Fights
-Laundry
-Cleaning
-Not being able to get a hold of people
-Ruined dresses and shirts
-Ironing. BAH
-Sllooooowwww internet

March is awesome!

2009-03-09T22:03:00.000-07:00

Top 5 things that have March awesome (so far)
Xina's visit consisting of shopping, getting hairs done, eating, ice cream, shopping and more shopping
Justina coming tomorrow. See above.
Reading Books that Mandie sent me for my Birthday
New Bookstore, well not really new but I had never been there.
Finding perogies! You have no idea how big a deal this is. Think of your favorite food, and take it away. Take it away by making it unavailable! Then, 10 months later, discover it at the grocery store! And the world rejoices!

Last post of the day!

Trader Joe's Cheddar and potato perogies

2009-03-09T18:49:00.000-07:00

I have been trying to find perogies in southern California since I got here in December. Being from Central Canada, which contains a large Ukrainian population.
A first glance, alright these perogies look normal, kind of long but normal. Upon picking on up, they're all covered in flour which is strange. Especially since you boil them. Whatevs.
While boiling them I fried my bacon and onions. After boiling them for 5ish minutes, you have to fry them. Its just the way these things are done.
I am pretty excited for these babies to be done so I can try them. I'm trying not to get my hopes up.
First bite... A little bacon, and little onion, piece of perogie and some sour cream. The only way to eat perogies. Delicious bacon and onion but the perogie didn't really have a lot of flavor. Second bite, just perogie. Pretty ok. Not spectacular, not horrible. I ate about a dozen. Now I'm full.
Overall review, Decent. Not the greatest but for the price ($2.25 I think) can't really complain. I'd definitely eat them again but still hope to befriend a Baba and get her to feed me.

today

2009-03-09T16:39:00.000-07:00

A bee flew into my ear, twice. Didn't sting me, then flew into my head before hitting the ground.
Waiting for Steve to come home. He started working nights, not used to it yet.
Justina gets here tomorrow. Round 2 of entertaining. The last round left me exhausted! Hopefully we do some fun stuff, if not her trip will suck balls.

a day in the life

2009-03-04T21:29:00.000-08:00

of the lambertis

2009-03-04T07:24:00.001-08:00

This is gold. Hours of entertainment.

2009-02-26T16:24:00.000-08:00

I ordered these from Target, and pretty much love them. I just got them today and am making coffee so I can use them even though it's WAY too late to be drinking coffee, thats ok.

Best Day Ever!

2009-02-23T14:56:00.000-08:00

bleck. I feel so anti-social. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to go anywhere. I just want to sit in my bed and eat candy. I'm not depressed, I just don't care.

What's gonna set you free?

2009-02-17T10:16:00.000-08:00

Look inside and you'll see
When you've got so much to say
It's called Gratitude, and that's right.

Life is awesome. Oatmeal for breakfast, watching a movie or 2 and a clean house. I have a fantastic husband whom I adore. We have a great apartment and live in a great place. I have a lot to be grateful for, and I am.

Letter to fox 5

2009-02-09T07:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Fox 5,

What the fuck? I am shocked and appalled at the inappropriate attire that your meteorologist is wearing this morning, nay your weather girl in wearing. On what planet is it appropriate for any professional to wear a mini-skirt? Whoever decided her attire is acceptable should be fired. Chrissy Russo looks like a whore.

The fact that Fox is a conservative news channel that allows their staff to dress like a tramp boggles the mind. Did Chrissy Russo just stumble in from a club and pull a sweater over her head at 3 a.m this morning? That is what her attire suggests. Is she drunk? Her actions suggests she is. Did she steal her 12-year-old sister’s cheerleading skirt? Her cheering suggests she did. Chrissy Russo is on the morning news, which is on in many households while children get ready for school. Is this really a great message to be sending to children? Do you really thinks is a great message to send to young girls to dress like a whore and act like a moron.

Not only does she dress like a tramp, but her lack of professionalism suggests that she is a teenager making a video-blog on her myspace. I realize that this woman has a degree however she acts like a stupid girl. Saying “Wait, wait, it looks like I’m wearing sunglasses” while standing behind the word ‘live” that appears on the left hand side of the screen on the air is in no way appropriate. Also cheering and jumping up and down is something a cheerleader would do not a professional woman, which you can hardly call your weather girl. I would be surprised if someone told me that this news cast was done while she was sober. At least her actions are fitting to her name.

I can only imagine what some other members of the community have to say regarding the weather girl’s “skirt”. This is the worst example of a lack of professionalism I have ever seen. I am so disgusted by this idiot and her trampy attire that I will not be watching the remained of the morning news. I am extremely disappointed with the choice your network has made and will NEVER choose to receive my news from Fox 5 again.

Sincerly,
Miss Wants-to-punch-that-bitch-in-the-face

2 days of

2009-02-07T07:19:00.000-08:00

restless sleep
nightmares
throwing up
not being able to eat
crying
staring at the walls
no motivation
no desire to do anything else
trying to feel better

This is not the kind of person I am, I have never been like this. I don't know how to make it better.

ugh.

2009-02-04T06:36:00.000-08:00

This weekend my parents are off to Ontario to empty my grandma's house. She lives in Alberta, and has for I dont remember how many months, and just sold her house. So once again, my parents are off to clean up the family mess. I am amazed that my dad is going considering, although I guess he's going to visit his parents.
I wonder if any of my aunts are going to go help, probably not. I don't know if one of them has any idea that other people actually exist.
I'd like to go with them to help and visit my other grandparents, but unfortunitly thats not an option.

I'm sure throughout the course of this weekend there will be another phone call ended in tears.

till death do us part

2009-02-03T06:35:00.000-08:00

I can only hope to end up like this couple.

I like these. I hope they show up at my house.

2009-01-27T12:59:00.000-08:00

Size small

Smalleroo

Guess what size!

Teeny-Tiny

Size 5

The size I need on this one is shocking....

lil

Mens 5

Black size 6

Size 6. K thanks!

Pink size 6

train

size 6

size 4

loves

2009-01-25T13:54:00.001-08:00

yesterday on the way home from the zoo
before Stephen left.

ugh.

2009-01-23T06:26:00.000-08:00

You can't change you're family. They are who they are. Even if they're selfish assholes. I am still shocked and get angry about the stupid shit they do. It amazes me that they hold nothing sacred and have no sentimental value.

I have no relationship with these people and I'm starting to be ok with that. I'm starting to loose the resentment that I harbor towards them.

My family will never be like this. If my brother and I act this way I expect to get punched in the face by my mother. If my children ever act this way, I'll punch them in the face.

As soon as I stop caring, the better Ill feel.

the missing list

2009-01-22T16:55:00.000-08:00

In no real order.

Skating on the river

Coffee Dates

Feeling useful

Working

Friends

Having money

Coffee Dates

Vermicelle

Mac & Cheese with linguica

Mittens

Winners

Dancing

Beers

Working

Knowing people

Going out

Meeting Street Cafe

Challah French Toast

Imac

"Irish" Coffees in the winter

Perogies. They seem to not exist here, no restaurants, no grocery stores.

I'm just bummed. Ignore this.

Antics of HillCrest

2009-01-20T10:17:00.004-08:00

I live in a pretty busy, populated part of San Diego. HillCrest is the gay neighbourhood (I know there is no "u" in America). We live on a busy street, so we expect to hear traffic and people until fairly late at night. But other than that, its a normal pretty chill place to live.

Until Saturday night rolls around. No, not because of rowdy drunks running around. Saturday night is when the bible thumpers come out to play, or I should say pray. The stand on the corner and have prayer circles, play guitars and try to save the gay's souls.

I have no idea how long this has been going on for, but we've noticed it for two weeks now. This Saturday that just passed was when we watched.

Around 8:30 or 9 we heard our neighbors yelling on our shared balcony. Yelling about the lack of class of the bible thumpers, their shitty musical skills. Even an I love Jebus from the balcony.

The churchies seemed to have befriended a hobo. He was hugging them, probably giving them diseases, trying to share his 40 of vodka with them. A little while later a little drag parade went prancing down the street. Just to make a point? I think so. The Jesus-crew seemed to be distracted by the hobo to yell at them.

They stayed until around 10ish, thats when the girls left, the men stayed, touching the hobo for about half an hour longer.

The churchies will come and pray for the souls of the gays and tell them that they are going to hell, yet they didn't really do anything for the homeless other than hug them. Wouldn't the Christian thing to do be offer this man some assistant? Give him a sandwich and offer him a place to stay for the night?

I seem to recall in Exodus God telling Moses something about helping your fellow man when they are in need.

No, Christianity it not about helping your fellow man. My bad.

We'll see what happens this Saturday.

Oh say can you see?

2009-01-20T09:50:00.002-08:00

It's all over, but now it is really just beginning. We have a new president. This being my first election in this country, I have seen a overwhelming sense of hope for the future. Maybe it's because Obama is such an eloquent speaker, maybe it's because they actually believe what he says he is going to do, maybe its because someone new was needed or maybe it's because of something else I'm completely missing.

I'm not going to talk about how historic this election was, every election is historic. The 44th president will hopefully bring back the respect that this country deserves. America is one of the greatest countries in the world, yet on a global level it is a joke. Americans don't get the respect they deserve in other countries. Well, I'm not going to get into that, but hopefully with this change comes a change in opinion by others.

It took this country 8 years to get into this horrid depression, hopefully it takes less than 8 years to get out of it.

Of the two choices I think the right person is now in the right position. Had the republicans made better choices, and nominated more qualified people today could be completely different. Maybe next time.

I am hoping that by the end of this presidency I will be able to call America my country. Hopefully I can vote in the next election. I am hoping that Americans will stop saying that this country is horrible and they hate it. Well if you hate it, get out. Some of us want to be here and are trying to be here.

Being from another country that is so close to the U.S I feel like I have a unique perspective concerning most things on a daily basis, but especially when it comes to politics. I have the outsider perspective as well as the American perspective.

The sense of hope is contagious. There are many things that I am looking forward to, but one possibility would be the WORST decision this country could make. It has been talked about for years, hopefully it'll never happen.

Frustration

2009-01-15T10:18:00.002-08:00

I am getting so frustrated. I feel like all I do is wait. I'm waiting for my immigration to go through, but it feels like its never going to happen.

I applied in September, its January. Everyday I check the mail only to get nothing. I've done everything I needed to, I've sent what has been asked of me. Now I'm starting to feel hopeless. I just want to work which is another issue I don't even want to get into.

I'm frustrated.

I feel defeated and useless.

wtf!

2009-01-15T06:18:00.002-08:00

We wake up this morning, Stephen goes into the bathroom and theres TINY ants in the sink. WTF. Where did they come from? How did they get here?

My skin is crawling. I don't do well with bugs. I've given them the bathroom. They can have it! I give up!

I'm waiting until it gets light out to go get some ant killing. Fucking disgusting. I've never seen ants like this. I was told there is no bugs in California. Why must you lie to me!?

We like to eat fancy sounding food.

2009-01-11T15:58:00.003-08:00

Last night for dinner I made Pork scalipini with citrus sauce and chirizo cornbread stuffing. We also added linguica into the stuffing. It was delicious! Everything was so good, I didn't know how much I liked pork until I made it. The pork was very tender, and the stuffing was very moist.

This morning for breakfast, we made french toast with honey wheat berry bread and bacon. I wanted challah bread but didn't think of it while we were at the store.

Tonight I made shark! I've never had shark before. It was seared with tomatoes, olives, capers and peppers. No fancy side tonight, just rice.

It turned out pretty good. We had a little extra so we brought it over to the tattoo shop. I am so full. I really like to shark. It was a little fishy, which I like about fish. It was cooked to perfection!

Tomorrow I might be solo for dinner so I'll just end up eating soup or a grilled cheese, nothing fancy or exciting. Or maybe the left over pork. I just had some stuffing and it was delicious!

On an unrelated note; Happy belated surprise party Jef. Sorry we couldn't make it! You should have just come to CA instead... And brought everyone with you.

Food is delicious!

2009-01-08T12:57:00.003-08:00

I've forgotten how much I love to cook since I had no one to cook for for the last 6 months.

Last week I made Honey-Teriyaki Chicken with sesame seeds and sesame cellophane noodles and snap peas.

It was might delicious. Super easy to make, I would rather have marinated the chicken over night and will probably make 6 breasts next time. But over all it was pretty delicious.

Breakfast is the usual, bacon, eggs, hominy and toast. There has been some pancakes in the mix and egg scrambles also in the mix.

Our new favorite dinner is sauteed chicken with balsamic citrus sauce. I've only made it twice thus far, but it has been so good both times.

I also cut my index finger makes breakfast last Saturday. That has made doing everything more difficult.

This week I plan on making Mac and cheese, satay chicken with peanut sauce, pork and peppers, perogies, and who knows what else. I don't know if I'll be the only one eating dinner this week, so I might just maked grilled cheese and cereal everyday.

There will be more photos of the up-coming meals. Hopefully they're all delicious.

2009-01-08T10:32:00.002-08:00

Some times everything just feels right

2009-01-06T10:51:00.002-08:00

Time for the update.

This weekend Stephen and I went to Balboa park to hear the world's largest out door pipe organ. It just so happened to be the organ's 94th birthday.

The park is unbelievable! Everything about it is beautiful! The botanical gardens, the flowers, the koy ponds. There was a lot of people there, and I've only seen about 10% of the park, but it is stunning! Seriously, anyone who comes to visit we're going to spend a day there.

Yesterday I went to find a job, had an interview, have another today and tomorrow. I'm pretty psyched on the first one. I think it's mine, I'm pretty into it though, keeping my fingers crossesd.

My favorite mother in law came to visit one day last week, she bought us some couches which I have yet to take pictures of. I pretty much love her and the couches. My apartment is starting to look like people live here. We're getting some shelving this week, and a TV hopefully in the next few. We have a tiny tv in the bedroom, but we want a big one, cuz we're jerks.

Moving to San Diego is the best thing we've ever done. I absolutely love it here. The weather is awesome, the city is beautiful and everything just feels like it should.

You know when everything just feels like it should, like you're doing what you should be and that you are where you need to be. I'm more relaxed here, I feel better, I'm happier, I have pretty much no stress. Sure I'm still in the honey-moon phase of living here, but I'm pretty sure it'll stay like this.

Theres a flower stand kiddie-corner from my apartment, I think I'm going to get some flowers sometime soon.

Ill also take pictures and post them soon.

Love

Mrs. SanDiego

goodbye 2008

2008-12-31T23:50:00.000-08:00

Fuck you 2009.
The only reason I'm awake is because I can't sleep.
Tomorrow is just another day and will be no different than any other, except a bunch of assholes will make promises to themselves that they'll break in 3 days and there will be a larger number of douche bags with hang overs.
Thankfully I didn't get a single 'happy new year' text, myspace or facebook message.
Back to trying to sleep... Except for the drunken assholes yelling outside my window. Hopefully they kill each other.
Thank you and fuck off.

Top 5 reasons San Diego is the greatest place ever!

2008-12-30T13:30:00.002-08:00

Lets make with the lists so I don't have to write epic entries.

5. The weather! Right now its 65 degrees out. Thats about 17 for you canucks. There isn't a cloud in the sky and flowers are in bloom everywhere. I have my winds open right now, and its almost January.

4. My husband lives here. That should be number one but I've already written number 1 and copy and pasting is too hard! So he gets number 4. I love him so much and haven't not seen him for more than a month since we've been married has sucked. But now we live in the best place ever. I sure do love him.

3. The Driscoll's live here. It has been so helpful having people that we know around to help us out. Without them we would be way worse off! We owe Craig everything and really appreciate all his and Danielle's help. Including giving my ass a job.

2. L.A is close by which on it's own blows, but we've got family there. Both of my brothers-in-law live there as well as my father-in-law. Hopefully in the next year or 2 we can get my mother-in-law out here too! If we need anything or want some family around its just a 2+ hour drive to L.A depending on traffic.

1. Hillcrest is the place to be!

This is my block, The first window on the left with the light on is my living room, the one beside it is my bedroom.

Everything we need is in the neighborhood. Whole Foods in a block away, there is a billion resturants that are all open until 3 a.m. Ralph's is a 10 minute walk. There are clothing, books, shoes, second hand stores (Xina theres a store that is ONLY 20s-60s). Balboa park is about 5 blocks away. Needless to say we never have to drive anywhere! And if we do need to drive ikea, target, best buy, marcys, saks, nordstroms are all less than 15 minutes away.

Everyone in the neighbourhood is so friendly! People say hello to you when you're walking down the street. It's the "gay" neighbourhood, which is also the safe neighbourhood. Thugs don't come here cuz they're afraid they'll catch the gay.

The only thing I don't like is the tap water. Since water is all I drink the fact that the water is disgusting doesn't help.

Hope all is well, enjoy the cold.

Mrs. So-Cal

its my aeroplane

2008-12-13T09:31:00.000-08:00

I hate flight delays. Especially when its a fucking hour! Ugh! Fuck my life!

count down

2008-12-11T14:50:00.000-08:00

42 more hours! I'm all kinds of excited!

2008-12-10T07:08:00.000-08:00

74 more hours until I get everything I've ever wanted back. I am so excited I don't know what to do with myself, I feel like pacing all the time.
I wish I could just sleep for the next 74 hours.
7 days until we go to sunny california. And in 7 days I'll be married for 5 months. Hurray.
I'm psyched.

sweet candy

2008-12-06T12:19:00.002-08:00

thanks KJ!

gold lamé

2008-12-03T16:35:00.001-08:00

All the cool kids are doing it.

its the jam.

take note.

playing dress up at work

2008-11-29T12:36:00.002-08:00

I am Jef Saunders

I am Billy Wood.

illin

2008-11-11T17:27:00.000-08:00

I'm sick in bed. I have a fever, I'm exhausted and not hungry. I don't really feel sick, I'm just tired and have a headache.

I hope I feel better tomorrow, since its my only day off. Ugh.

The list Updated!

2008-11-08T12:41:00.002-08:00

Ask and you shall receive, so here it is. The wish list.

The only thing I want this year I'm getting back on December 13th, so I'm pretty much set, BUT if you wanna buy my love here are some ways to do so.

What's christmas without Matt & Nat? Sade in Silver

Or Pink.

Also Matt & Nat

And one more!

From Williams-Sonoma

Please pre-order!

Choke by Chuck Palahniuk

Fugitives and Refugees by Chuck Palahniuk

Smashbox Eye Shadow & Brush Collection

I love Nail Polish!

CK Splendid Glam collection

Make up forever!

Benefit Creaseless smudge pot In Aubergine

Clinique High Impact Mascara in black of course!

The best eye makeup remover ever!

NoNo!

Big Ol'Paddle Brush for beating misbehaving children

BLING BITCHES!

New Train Case Since mine has seen better days

I can't get the pictures to load, but ANY necklace, bracelet or broach from Miss Bibi

Emerald City anyone?

Whats with all the rings?

Size Small soon you're tall, we love you just the way you are. No? no one remembers?

X-tra Small

I kill you

Big surprise, small

Small East Coast shirt.

The secret lives of men and women by Frank Warren

A lifetime of secrets by Frank Warren

My Secret by Frank Warren

Not available until November 11th

Tools of the Trade 10 piece bakeware from Macy's On Sale

Cuisinart Grind & Brew Themal

Kitchenaid 6 piece set

8 piece bowls

Small

I would like some sedatives so I too can have this facial expression

size 3

Mr. And Mrs. Hoooks

The dude

Coasters set of 4

Or argyle!

I need a sweet apron to be a house wife!

Art for my new place to live!

Fancy Dictionary!

Making this list was surprisingly hard to do, I don't really want anything but I figured this would give you some options for things I'd enjoy and appreciate very much. I'm already getting everything I've ever wanted for Christmas this year. Either way I'll be happy.

Love you!
Mrs Psyched-for-December-13th!

life lessons from rhode island

2008-11-06T13:33:00.000-08:00

Doesn't and don't are not interchangable.
Doesn't means does not.
Don't means do not.
" It has been proven that that don't work." Does that make sense to you? Apparently in rhode island that's fine.
Sangwhich means sammich means sandwhich.
There is a college kid with a towel tied around his shoulders, soaked hair combing his hair and beard.... at a coffee shop.

I am fucking exhausted, I feel like I've been hit by a train. I've worked 8 hours so far, have 2 off and have to go back for another 4, be there until 930 and go back at 630. Exhausted. I just want to sleep... not for at least another 5 hours. At least I can eat cereal.

change

2008-11-05T05:03:00.000-08:00

Results are in. Big promises were made.
Now we wait to see what will actually happen.
It'll be a sad day if there is mass amnesty.

Its that time of year again, time for the old Annual Gift List

2008-11-01T16:58:00.005-07:00

2008-10-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

I guess I should update. The count down is on till we move, but more exciting is that stephen will be coming home soon.

I'm so fucking excited you've got no idea. I feel like I've been waiting and waiting to get my life with stephen started and every time we get so close and then BAM! Kick in the face, take 10 steps back. Bah!

I can't wait until stephen comes home and I get to see him and touch him and wake up with him in the morning. I've been married for almost 4 months, I've seen him 3 or 4 days out of those months. I can't wait I think I'm going to scream.

Every time I go to update I get uninspired and quit. Just like right now.

56 days

2008-10-18T20:40:00.000-07:00

We're almost done being apart. 56 more days will turn into no more days pretty soon. Then we'll move to california and it'll be awesome. I can't wait.
December 13th stephen comes home and yankee swap. I can't wait to see my amazing husband again. I love him so much. I'm psyched.
'Nite.

count down to sd

2008-10-09T16:31:00.000-07:00

The count down is on. I get to finally see my husband on december 13th. I am so fucking psyched you have no idea.

its been a long hard week, or maybe a month. or maybe its always been like this.

2008-09-29T18:51:00.001-07:00

I can't remember. I'm finding it harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning to go to work and make no money. Even when I do make money I find myself questioning 'what's the point? Why bother? Would the world end if I just stayed in bed until december?' I have pms but I don't feel like that's the only reason I feel this why.

I'm very blah. Maybe its exhaustion, restlessness, stress, anxiety, loneliness, or just being home sick. All of which I feel on a daily basis. Maybe I'm depressed. I don't know.

I see myself doing things on a daily basis, going through the motions, but all I want to do is be in a ball in bed and be left alone. I want the world to go away. Maybe all the stress of the last... I dunno 6 months is finally getting to me to the point where I don't know how to cope anymore and just want to relax... but I can't.

My life has been lived out of a suitcase since june. I feel like I don't have a home. I've moved 4 times since june and about to be 1 more. I have a place to rest my head but its not my home. I have no home.

My heart isn't here. My heart is on the otherside of this foreign country. As well as I may seem to be dealing, I'm not. I don't know how to feel better. I don't know that I'm ever going to feel better. I've felt this way for so long I don't remember what anything else feels like. I don't know how to be anything other than the fine on the outside, a trainwreck on the inside.

Tomorrow is my first day off where I don't have something to do and that I can sleep in. If there is some kind of bullshit construction in the morning at 7 am I am going to loose my fucking mind.

Unless you've got some magic way to make everything better, ignore this.

I need a coffee date.

I love shoes

2008-09-27T10:15:00.002-07:00

I Like:

Bellgrave
by L.A.M.B.

buy me this please. I don't give a shit if they are $800 pair of boots. Ill wear them everyday.

blogging while eating

2008-09-26T09:03:00.000-07:00

I love challah french toast. Love it.

The last few days have sucked. I miss stephen to the point where I feel like throwing up. It sucks.

I've started running again and eating like a decent human being. My knees are already destoried. Which is to be expected.

Listening to brown student talk in general makes me want to kill myself, especially when they talk politics. Vomit

Major bum-out happened yesterday, don't want to get into it.

Stoked to go out to the country.

Not stoked to move....again.

Its raining and my nose is fucking itchy.

124am not sleepy yet

2008-09-23T22:24:00.000-07:00

Dear trainwreck that is my life,

Anytime now you can resolve yourself. I've had more stress and drama in my life since july than I've ever had...ever. Combined.
Stress has caused me to be so tense that I've pinched a nerve in my back, causing my arm to go numb for hours. Slowly that's resolving itself.
This week I've been very restless, anxious and can't get comfortable. As a result I don't know what to do with myself.
I miss stephen so munch that I don't know what to do with myself. It makes me ill thinking about it. Its almost december, right?
Its 130 and still no sleep in sight. I just want to fucking move already and get settled somewhere. Once we get to california, I will have moved everything I own 5 times since june. I need stability, I'm fucking sick of moving, throwing things away and living out of a suitcase.
I'm bored with this.
Out.

2008-09-22T19:46:00.000-07:00

Weekends over, back to normal life.

Went to ct yesterday. Got a little car sick. Got sleepy. Went to bed.

Had an awesome time with jim. I'm psyched to get to know my famly in law.

It seems the stress has finally gotten to me. I have a pinched nerve in my back that's causing my arm to loose feeling. Fun times. I'm trying to chill the fuck out but its no working too well.

Its 11 pm. I have to be at work at 630. I should be sleeping. Ugh...

I can't wait to be in ca.

September is almost over

2008-09-20T08:32:00.002-07:00

but December is still very far away.

Stephen's brother Jim has been in town for the last few days. We hung out. I'm pretty psyched to have a brother in law. We went out last night, met some people. I had a good time.

Being here recently has made me very home sick. Spending time with Jim has made me miss my family tremendously. I never thought I'd admit it, but I do. Now especially I feel like I should be back in Canada, even though there is nothing I can do that'll make anything better. We just have to wait and see what happens.

Tomorrow, we are going to CT to visit the family, which I enjoy very much.

Today, just like yesterday, was having a tough time. I miss Stephen to the point where all I want to do is lay in bed in a ball and wait for him to come home. Most days I miss him enough to function, the last few have been unbearable.

I miss the things that I've left behind, but wouldn't change my situation for anything.

trying not to think means thinking more

2008-09-13T14:44:00.002-07:00

fucking bullshit.
My family is having the toughest time possible ever. I can't be there. Im angry. Im upset. Im stressed. I just want to lay in bed with my husband and have him tell me everything will be alright.

There is going to be one less person at my wedding. someone i wanted there very much.

mobile blog..... what!

2008-09-12T05:12:00.001-07:00

I'm writing from work, on my phone. Its dead, I've drank 3 cups of coffee. My tummy hurt. I've been here since 630, one table.

In this update:
Meeting the captain
The immigration saga
The triumphant return of movie night
Pancakes
Apartment

Lets start with the captain. I work at the blue elephant on wickenden. Our building is haunted. It was haunted before we were here and I'm sure it'll be haunted afterwards. The ghosts name is the captain, or at least that's what we call him.
I've heard stories about the building from coworkers about things flying off the shelves and the shelves coming off the walls but nothing being broken. I was kind of skeptical but still sorta believed it. I figured I'd figure it out eventually. Eventually turned out to be yesterday.
I'm in the office going to run a credit card. I put the card on the desk and a bag with papers in in hits me in the chest. There is no way it fell off the shelf and hit me 2 feet away. Then I swipe the card, unknown error. Weird. That's never happened before. I'm a little weirded out at this point, tell a coworker. Yup, that's the captain. I appologised for whatever I did that he didn't like. Hopefully we're cool now.

My aos is getting mailed today, finally! A grand later, a shit ton of stress and 6 hours last night, it'll finall be done. Finally! In the mail don't have to worry. What does this ajustment of status get me? Citizenship? Ahhahhahahaha fuck no. I become a lawful perminant resident. A laper. What does that? I don't really know. But it'll be filed, that's all that matters. Done. Don't have to worry about it anymore.

Wednesday was the first movie night since movie out of 10th street. It was the first wednesday that I had both power and furniture. We watched conan and arthur. We ate the usual, nice slice deliciousness, chips, gaucomole, some chocolate, cupcakes and I'm sure there's more I'm forgetting. It was good to bring back the movie night. I look forward to the next installment. Ft also fixed my toilet so the how to not flood my bathroom instructions are no longer necessary.

I'm trying real hard not to love my apartment, but I kinda do. Especially since its really empty. Bed, tv, kitchen, bathroom, I'm all set. Its like a studio since my bed is in the living room but I have an empty bedroom. Awesome!

Oh and the pancakes. Blue elephant for realz is out of hand with the deliciousness. First it was mango pancakes. THEN it was mango pancakes with pudding in between then! And now!!! BACON AND PINEAPPLE IN PANCAKES!!!!!!!1 its fucking retarded how good it is! Holy fucking jesus!

Come seee me for breakfast yo. Gimme some dollar dollar bills.

That's all, I'm not proof reading this, so suck a dick if you're going to complain about my use of english.

blogging from the apartment

2008-09-09T15:20:00.000-07:00

I'm in my apartment. I'm trying not to love it. Trying real hard.

Hmmm lets see what's new.
My building is in foreclosure, I'm not sure what's going on yet.
After 48 days of sleeping on a couch, having a destoryed back and being exhausted I finally have my bed! Its big and empty. Its also in my living room.

I'm eating a little hdcr in bed watching the life aquatic, life is pretty decent right around now.

Work is good, starting to get busy.. I had so much more I wanted to write but I don't fucking feel like it.

National Gird

2008-09-05T13:43:00.001-07:00

Fuck you national grid. Open the fucking door and do your job.
I haven't had fucking power for a fucking week because of you.
Get your fucking shit together.
FUCK YOU.
Fuck my life

September: The month to chill? PFFFF no

2008-09-03T15:03:00.002-07:00

September 1st get an apartment. Hurray!
Its now that 3rd, still no power.
No furniture.
Put up some window coverings. I use the term very loosely.
Broke Xina's stapler. Sorry dude.

Went to target, bought some house stuffs. Got 6 dollhair shoes. Fuck yes!
I love target.

Now... nothing exciting going on. work tomorrow and thursday? I think? Oh wait tomorrow is thursday.

Back to the dr. on Friday for them to look at my arm and see I don't have T.B. Obviously. I went today, was there for 2 hours and spent $200+. fucking gross.

Right now, broke again, hating life slightly less. Bleck.

Labour Day... Wait is it Labor Day in America?

2008-09-01T13:27:00.002-07:00

Waiting to go to a cookout. That's a BBQ in America.
Work was busy, was there for 6 hours, am exhausted, smelly and slightly less poor.
Nails are a mess, need a manicure. Never had one before.
Stress has turned into anxiety, dunno which is worse.
Got some pictures from the husband today. Delightful!

Left side has a dull ache again, better not be appendicitis.

This comes up when googling Labour Day

2008-08-30T12:42:00.002-07:00

The rug has been puled out from under my feet.
The stress is starting to get to me.
All I want is to eat perogies with sour cream, bacon and onions.
And peanut butter ice cream.
Not together.
Sadly not going to happen today.

I crave stability. It seems like its been so long since I had a sense of normalcy. I'm so over-whelmed with the unknown.

Maybe I'm just being a baby. I just need to chill and stop complaining. I could be worse.

fuck!

No real update in a while. No real update to follow.

2008-08-27T13:56:00.002-07:00

Haven't written anything substantial in a while, don't plan on starting now.
With September right around the bend there is few things I'm looking forward to

+My own apartment which means my own bed.
+Being on month closer to December
+Being finished with my immigration for a while
+Cook Outs
+Sleeping with the windows open
+Hopefully getting a computer
+Netflicks being my new boyfriend
+The return on movie night. Which means hang outs and deliciousness
+Work being stupid busy so I can make some dollar, dollar bills
+The leaves changing colours, although that won't happen for a while
+Meeting one of my brothers-in-law and going to CT again

And of course the things I'm not so stoked on
-5 more months apart
-The possibility of finding another job
-Missing people, you know who you are
-Having to be responsible and pay my bills
-No Cable
-Being lonely
-Maybe no having a computer
-Moving... I fucking hate moving.
-5 more months apart.

I am EXTREMELY grateful for Jef and Xina letting me be a bum and crash on their couch. Thanks yo.

Providence Kids, Come to the Blue Elephant for some delicious breakfast. Thanks!

If you'd like to buy me things, heres some suggestions.

2008-08-16T15:20:00.003-07:00

XSMALL

Xtra Small

Red, size 7

I think it rains sometimes in San Diego?

Size Small of course!

Please and Thank you!

From Here

There will be more, oh yes, there will be more. I'm tired now.

I love Heroin!!!!

2008-08-16T12:37:00.003-07:00

I've had a delightful day at work thus far. At around 12 or 12:30 this broad and sketchy McSketchbag came in. The lady was pretty normal, not abnormally crazy, asking me normal questions... not insane. The guy she came in with was seriously the MOST FUCKED UP I've ever seen anyone. He was wondering around, mumbling incoherently, eyes half opened, had MAYBE 3 teeth. Overall just a fucking mess.

During his wandering around, he used the hand sanitizer that we have on all the display cases on his hands and neck. His head was bleeding, Jef gave him some wound wash to clean his disgusting picked at face. Later on he asked where the cologne he had just put on was. I told him on the display case behind him. He turned and looked, "Where?" "Two feet in front of you" That was the bitchiest I got with Mr. Junkie.

Jef did the piercing with the door opened, thank god! During that time he was walking in and out of the piercing room, went into the bathroom "To tuck his shirt in". He had just gotten out of jail and showed us his shitty jail house tattoo. I bite my tongue and didn't say "Yeah thats the biggest piece of shit I've ever seen"

At some point, he grabs MY coffee. My coffee is stilling behind a sign next to the computer monitor. He picks it up, "Thats my coffee." He keeps going to drink it, "Hey buddy thats not your coffee." Needless to say once he put it down, I threw it away. There is no way in hell I'm going to drink my coffee that I had maybe 5 sips from after the most disgusting person ever touched it. Ugh!

After they left Jef noticed that there was some little puddles on the floor. I'm walking towards him and he's like "Stop!" So I did, and then I noticed the spots. He had either drooled on the floor of pissed himself a bit. Either way he was a fucking mess and I feel like I got AIDS from breathing the same air as him.Thats when operation clean everything he could have possibly touched. I cavi-wiped the bathroom, he re-mopped the floor. The bottle of sanitizer was thrown out. We did I full OCD clean.

Fucking most disgusting and train wrecked thing I've ever seen in my life. If Jef wasn't here I would have asked them to leave because Sketchy McGee is a creeper and I'm not a big fan of heroin addicts. Or If Jef had closed the door I would have asked him to open it or asked him to leave OR gone downstairs and made someone hang out with me for the brief time he was there.

Fucking heroin addict stole my coffee.

movie night

2008-08-12T18:34:00.004-07:00

2008-08-05T12:09:00.001-07:00

Employment! Hurray!

2008-08-04T15:21:00.002-07:00

This makes me happy.

What to do on Wednesday nights?

2008-08-01T14:57:00.003-07:00

I'm pretty bummed that movie night is no more.
It wasn't about the shitty movies that we watched, or the 2nd movie nap.
I miss seeing everyone once a week and hanging out for a few hours.
I miss the shit-talk and delicious food.
I miss the fag-jokes, the fart jokes and at least one person bitching about the temperature.
It was fun times while it lasted.
It was my favourite day of the week.

This is all kinds of fucked up

blah

2008-07-30T12:21:00.003-07:00

This is what I signed on for, but way harder than I expected.
Anxiety like never before.
My heart hurts like never before.
I miss my husband more than I've ever missed anyone or anything.
I have the overwhelming urge to throw up daily.

I've looked at some apartments, applied for some jobs. Hopefully I get both in the near future.
I've packed up everything I own twice in the last two months, which is on easy task to do once, but to do it twice and the second time packing up two lives in less than a week is ridiculous.

So much has happen since I last blogged, I don't have the energy to get into it.
Stephen is gone, to the other side of the country. I'm still here, trying to keep it together when I just want to curl up in a ball a cry.

ugh.
K.L

2008-07-18T09:15:00.002-07:00

Dear everyone,

Yesterday we did it. Stephen and I got up bright and early (9ish probably), put on our best (clean) clothes (ok so it was what we would have worn any other day) and we went down to East Providence City hall and got a Marriage License. Easy-Peasy. We filled out the paper work, gave them our I.Ds, (Birth Certificates from Canada are apparently amazing.), got the license. Step one complete.

Next we went to get a storage... thing. So we did that, filled out more paper work, paid some money. Done. Step two complete.

We came home, starting calling the Justice of the Peace numbers that the city hall lady gave me. The ONLY guy on the list was a douche, he need us to bring I.D.s, Marriage License and $100 CASH. Sketch bag. Stephen called his Rabbi friend, but he was in New York.
Then, he called a lawyer he know to see if anyone in his office could sign our marriage license. He told us to just go to the supreme court. So off we went.

We get there, go into the clerks office, Stephen asks "Can anyone here sign our marriage license for us?" And then the ladies in the office lost it! "Oh my gawd, they want to get married!" "Go talk to Henry, if hes busy I'll get my judge to do it." "Oh my gawd, there two are getting married today!" And so on in the same manner.
We go into the judges office, which was FREEZING, but has an amazing few! He's on the phone, so we sit down and he's doing what he needs to do on the license. We're laughing with the ladies, they're singing, they give me the judges fake flowers. It was good times.
The judge gets off the phone and is like "Do you want me to say some words? Do you're vows? Do you have rings?"
Stephen's respone "Do we have to stand for this?"
"What do you want me to do?"
"Just sign the paper"
"Alright," (throw the license at us) getta here."
Done we're married. On the way out, the ladies in the office are all "They just got married! Aren't they cute!"

Then we went to our reception at Target, which was catered by Wendy's and home for a nap.

Then we went to Julia's birthday for a little bit, then to Red Stripe where Chris made us an AMAZING dinner. It was 6 or 7 courses, Charlie (the server) brought us champagne. It was delightful.

Over all, not a shabby day.

Now its back to packing so that we can get this shit outta here before Stephen leaves on Wednesday. And off to the social security office to get ANOTHER number but with my name change. Hurray!

More in the future,
Mrs. Lamberti.

No shoes to hold my feet

2008-07-15T09:24:00.002-07:00

Trying to run on a daily basis it pretty hard when its a hundred million degrees out.
The best part is getting home, getting a glass of water and checking my emails, facebook etc. Sitting on the hard plastic pink chair, rolling beads of sweat weirdly feel like something was accomplished.
Way less stressed than I was an hour ago, still way more than a day ago. I knew this was coming and this is what I signed on for, I just didn't think it would come so fast.

December isn't that far away.

The ocean is my favourite thing ever!

2008-07-13T16:36:00.002-07:00

Went for a lil'brunch at the Choice residence. It was delicious! I do enjoy the eating. While chez the Choices, Ted got the idea to go to the beach. Of course I'm always down for beach action. So off we went. Billy Wood wore Xina's HOT pink workout shorts, which was a sight to see! Stopped off at our place to get a suit and off we went.

As soon as we get there we drop our shit a book it to the water. It was me and 3 30 year old men, it was fucking awesome! Well until the first wave hit me. I'm oh about knee deep when a wave hits and the under-tow almost took my feet out. I mean I'm no pussy girl that just goes to the beach to tan, but I know when I'm not a strong enough swimmer and haven't been in the ocean enough to not die. So I went in, one 12 foot wave kicked my ass, and I was done.

I deceided to sit on the beach to still get the ocean wateriness but not die. The result of the decision ended up with a bathing suit FULL of sand. I'm talking a sandcastle in my pants. It was awesome. So I took my little pants off on the beach, no bigs.

I laid on the beach, hopefully evened out my disease looking skin tan. The boys seemingly had a ball, acting like 5 year olds and then we came home.

Now I'm dying for some mac and cheese, maybe Ill sucker Stephen into going to the red fez or the grocery store.

On other news, I'm either allergic to my house or sick. I'm coughing my lungs out. It sucks, it hurts. I'm taking allergy medicine, cough syrup and nyquil. its an interesting combo and I still can't breathe out of my nose normally. I don't really remember what thats like. But I'm happier here than anyways else.

Oh yeah and there will be big news new week. Thats all I'm saying.

2008-07-10T09:01:00.001-07:00

Allergies are horrible. To the point where I'm coughing and it hurts.
Going for a run today, hopefully that'll help.
Living in America means I can't get sick, not until I have insurance.

2008-07-08T09:57:00.003-07:00

Trips to Canada will be necessary in the near future but I can't leave the country.
I am so mad and upset right now that I feel like crying and smashing things until theres nothing left to smash.
Some people deserve to be kicked in the head.
Instead Ill drink coffee and pack up my computer.

ugh

2008-07-08T09:28:00.001-07:00

dear ups,

I'm even more pissed off now that I've purchased a harddrive, tried to back up my stuff BUT CAN'T BECAUSE MY COMPUTER WONT STAY ON LONG ENOUGH. FUCK YOU. You'd better be paying for it to be repared plus pain and suffering. ASSHOLE.

I'm so pissed. If I loose everything I'm going to loose it.

yours,
Miss never-using-ups-again.

trying to make a grocery list, but eating jelly beans instead.

2008-07-01T13:47:00.002-07:00

Dear kids whom are wondering if I am dead,

I am not. I have been in America since June 17th, holy almost a month, that's bananas. Anyways, I've been getting settled, unpacking, moving stuff cleaning, cooking generally being a good house wife.

There has been lots of going out for coffee, very little work and lots of good times.

My stuff that I sent via UPS got here on Thursday, my computer is effin broken, that sucks balls. So some ball-bag from UPS was supposed to call me today, which he didn't, so that he can come take a look at it before they cut me a check for 2grand. In the mean time I can't update my ipod, can't use my computer AT ALL. BULLSHIT!

I also cut my hair on Thursday which I'm pretty sure I hate. but theres nothing I can do about that, other then let it grow... which'll take forever!

Mandie and Shandra got her yesterday afternoon. We went to 7 stars for coffee, Shandra got a manicure, we went to thayer, ate, came back here and then we went to the Hot Club, which for the most part I enjoy minus the fish smell of the harbour. Whatevs. Jef and Xina made an appearance.

Today we went to Narragansett, which I LOVE! I had never been in the ocean before. There was waves taller than me. So much fun, got a little sun burnt, but it was all fun. I have the funniest tan ever! We needed wrist bands to get onto the beach and I didn't notice mine went up my arm as far as it can go, and stayed there all day. AWESOME!

As soon as Mandie and Shandra get back, we're going to go get some deliciousness for dinner. Pork chops, potato salad, asparagus and spinach salad, yum!

Tomorrow, we're going to Boston!
Thursday New York City
Friday Bristol Independence Day Parade.

It's going to be a good week, there should be pictures but who knows when my computer is going to be replaced, so eventually I will post them.

Peace out,
Miss Having-a-Ball

2008-06-28T18:01:00.001-07:00

Dear UPS

FUCK YOU! I love my computer and the fact that you BROKE IT during shipping makes me mad. You will incur the full cost of having it work BACK to its immicualte condition that it was in, OR you will buy me a brand new one.

You'll be hearing from my people,
Mrs. Imac

update to come

2008-06-27T10:11:00.002-07:00

Dear kids that are getting antsy,

There will be an update coming either today or tomorrow with pictures. This update will include:
The move
America
The living situation
Work
The wedding
Dermal anchors and piercings
hair cuts
movies
movie night
things to be excited about and I'm sure there's more I'm forgetting.

The update will be soon and it will be awesome. Calm down Amber!

Coming soon,
Miss America

leaving tomorrow

2008-06-16T05:11:00.003-07:00

Off to R.I tomorrow, not coming back for a VERY long time. Like moving out there long time.
For some kids, it was awesome seeing you before I left, I am bummed that I won't be seeing you for a long time. For others, well its been too little, too late. Whatever your issue is I'm over it, way to be shitty.

For the R.I Kids I'm stoked for hang outs, movie nights, shows and general awesomeness. It'll be good to be back around people whom actually let you know when theres something going on and actually get invited out places. See you at the best movie night ever!

Mandie Ill see you in 2 weeks for the greatest vacation ever. I'm so stoked I think I'm going to pee my pants!

I'm so stoked to get all this bullshit over with.

I have so much shit to get done today its going to be bananas, hopefully I can get it all done and still have some dollars to my name.

Yours,
Miss America

books please come buy me books

2008-06-04T08:06:00.006-07:00

These are in no real order. Buy some books, help support sending me to America.

heidi grows up by Charles Tritten
David Livingstone or Blazing the Trail in Africa by Montefiorce Brice
Black Beauty by Anna Sewell
Stitch 'N Bitch the knitters handbook by Debbie Stoller
Stitch 'N Bitch Nation by Debbie Stoller
The Tanglewoods Secret by Patricia St. John
Developing Comprehension in Reading grade 3
She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb
Never Fade Away: The Kurt Cobain Story by Dave Thompson
The Drawing of The Three by Stephen King
Degrassi r High: Exit Stage Left by William Pasnak
Kiss Mommy Goodbye by Joy Fielding
Cannery Row by John Steinbeck
I know this much is true by Wally Lamb
Summer of '42 by Herman Faucher
I'm expecting to live quite soon by Paul West
The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan
Brave New World by Aldous Huxley
Anglea's Ashes by Frank McCourt
The Amityville Horror by Jay Anson
Daddy Long Legs by Jean Webster
Killing Pablo by Mark Bowden
East of Eden by John Steinbeck
Opium Dreams by Margaret Gibson
Cry, The Beloved Country by Alan Paton
Gray's Anatomy a Facsimile by Henry Gray F.R.S (Coffee Table book)
The Collector's Book of Science Fiction by H.G Wells with the Original Illustrations
The Girl who Loved Tom Gordon by Stephen King
Concerto en Noir et Blanc By Vincent Lauzon
Med Center: Virus by Diane Hoh
The Sacrifice by Adele Wiseman
Balzac and the Little Chinese Seamstress by Dai Sijie
Bluebeard's Egg by Margaret Atwood
Close Encounters of the Third Kind by Steven Spielberg
Pet Sematary by Stephen King
Tess of The D'Ubervilles by Thomas Hardy
Black and Blue by Ana Quindlen
The Pearl by John Steinbeck
Smith of Wootton Major by J.R.R. Tolkien
Tell Me A Riddle by Tillie Olsen
Psycho-paths by Robert Bloch
Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov
Harvard Classics :Dante
Harvard Classics: Sacred Writtings Buddhist, Hindu, Mohammedan, Christian
Dracula by Bram Stoker
Catch-22 by Joseph Heller
L. Frank Baum Creator of Oz by Katharine M Rogers
The Simpson: A complete Guide to Our Favorite Family
Mrs. Kimble by Jennifer Haigh
The Novels of Balzac
Who Killed Kurt Cobain?:The mysterious Death of an Icon by Ian Halperin and Max Wallace
Freedom in Exile: The Autobiography of the Dalai Lama
The Poisonwood Bible by Barabara Kingsolver
Milk and Cookies A Frank Asch Bear Story
The Silence of The Lambs by Thomas Harris
The Hitch-hikers Trilogy by Douglas Adams
The Other Side of John Lennon by Sandra Shevey
Puckoon by Spike Milligan
The American Night by Jim Morrison
The Color Purple by Alice Walker
A Different Beat: Writings by Women of the Beat Generation
Art of the Surrealists
War of the Worlds by HG Wells
The Fall of a President by the Staff of the Washington Post
The Catcher in the Rye by J.D Salinger
Wilderness: The Lost Writings by Jim Morrison
Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
The Complete Prophecies of Nostradamus
The Perks of Being A Wallflower
Beatniks by Toy Litt
The Perfect Husband by Lisa Gardner
The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
A History of Pirates by Nigel Cawthorne
Wild Animus by Rich Shapero
Misery by Stephen King
Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath
Slaughter-House-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Spanish-English Dictionary
Beschrelle
I know why the Cage Bird Sings by Maya Angelou
Chemistry by Neil Jespersen Ph.D
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
The Chronicles of Narnia: The Magician's Nephew by C.S Lewis
The Chronicles of Narnia The Lion The Witch and Wardrobe by C.S Lewis
The Chronicles of Narnia The Horse and His Boy by .S Lewis
The Chronicles of Narnia Price Caspian by C.S Lewis
The Chronicles of Narnia The Voyage of The Dawn Treader by C.S Lewis
The Chronicles of Narnia The Silver CHair by C.S Lewis
The Chronicles of Nania The Last Battle by C.S Lewis
Mirror, Mirror by Gregory Marguire
Wicked by Gregory Maguire
Buddha: Life & Teachings
Little Wmoen by Louisa M. Alcott
The Moon is Down by John Steinbeck
Marxism: The Unity of Theory And Practice
Sylvia Plath: Method and Madness by Edward Butscher
The Oxford History of the American People by Morison

Cofee Table books
graphis photo
Mr. Mojo: Risin' Jim Morrison by David Dalton

Comment, email, facebook and Mypsace me if theres anything you're intersted in.

EDIT: THESE BITCHES ARE GONE
The Beatles Illustraed Lyrics
Long Walk to Freedom by Nelson Mandela
Gone With The Wind by Margaret Mitchell
No Country for Old Men by Cormac McCarthy
Porno by Irvine Welsh
Animal Farm by George Orwell
Suicide Blonde by Darcey Steinke
The Beatles 365 days
Scream at the Sky by Carlton Stowers
Useless Sexual Trivia by Shand Mooney
Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck
Epitaph for a peach by David Mas Masumoto
The Motorcycle Diaries by Ernesto Che Guevara
The Green Mile by Stephen King
Vegan Feasts by Rose Elliot
Vegan Cooking by Eva Batt
The Vagina Monoloques by Eve Ensler
Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen
Fear and Laothing in Las Vegas by Hunter S. Thompson
The Women Who Wrote the War by Nancy Caldwell Sorel
A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
Treasure Island by Robert Lewis Stevenson
Famous Tales of Mystery and Horror by Edgar Allan Poe
Great Tales of Terror by Edgar Allan Poe
Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
The New Thought Police Inside the Left's Assault on Free Speech and Free Minds by Tammy Bruce
The Curious Incident of The Dog in The Night-Time by Mark Haddon
One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey
Tattoos by Henk Schiffmacher (Taschen)
The Art of Happiness At Work by His Holiness The Dalai Lama
Skin by Bonnie Bowman
A Child Called It and The Lost boy by Dave Pelzer
A Man Named Dave by Dave Pelzer
The Tattoo: Graffiti For The Soul
The Beatles: Yellow Submarine
Morrison: A Feast of Friends by Frank Lisciandro
Sinatra: An Intimate Collection by Bob Willoughby

Time they are a changin

2008-06-01T13:05:00.016-07:00

The time has FINALLY come, I'm moving. And I want to take as little as possible, so here comes the blogging.

Buy back a small porton of your childhood. Smurf alarm clock. You know you want to wake up to a smurfy day. slightly bent. All for the low low price of $20 bones

Long peacoat, black, wool, Medium. worn for 1 winter. $30

Very cute pink lamp, 12" tall. Would look fantastic in your bedroom on a beside table. $10

set of 4 canisters, which I love $20 bones. If you're in the US and you want 'em you're paying shipping. Jef and Xina these would look good in your kitchen.

Who doesn't love Halloween? You can have these delightful little lights, 20 of each style. $30 for all

Ikea stool $2

2 fans, fit well into windows. Don't wait until its +35 out and no where has fans left. $20

sweet bag. Great for your jet-set lifestyle $15 bones

Pictures from R.I that I didn't know existed

2008-05-18T15:29:00.004-07:00

I can't wait to go back.
The count down is on.

I broke the mouse!

2008-05-04T14:40:00.009-07:00

Note to self,
Stop dropping the mouse. Dropping it causes it to break.

all fixed!
Miss dropsies

The week in review. Short version

2008-04-29T17:33:00.002-07:00

Dear last week,

The Goods
+ Vi-ann deliciousness
+ Providence
+ Movie night
+ Good eats
+ Candy
+ Hang outs
+ Seeing Jef and Xina
+ Stephen
+ Lori's Delicious cake
+ Hanging out at the shop
+ 'Things other than Wu-Tang that 'aint nothing to fuck wit'
+ Thai food
+ walks
+ Running outside in a tank. Eat it Winnipeg
+ Letters from the consulate
+ Grocery shopping
+ Chilling
+ Rockstar
+ Coffee
+ Blue slipper
+ Cinnamon buns
+ King sized beds

The Sucktastic
- Leaving RI
- Coming to WInnipeg
- Getting stuck in Chicago
- Not staying long enough
- Getting motion sickness from the stupid video gam
- Sitting in a plane not going anywhere for an hour
- Flying
- Fat people sitting next to me on the plane taking up too much room
- People
- Being tired
- Sore legs
- Stress
- Not taking any pictures.
- Paying $140 for a hotel
- King sized beds... alone
-
All and all it was a good week, went by way to fast and I certainly don't want to go back to work.

One more month, until I know yay or nay for my visa. In the next month I will know where life will take me, where Ill be living, when I'll be getting married. One year from now my life will be completely different and I can't wait.

Get your hang outs in because I could be outta here as early as june!

Yours
Miss-I-miss-America

Fuck you Michael Moore

2008-04-16T16:06:00.003-07:00

dear health care,
FUCK YOU. YOU FUCKING SUCK. YOU'RE FUCKING BULLSHIT.

I got my referral date. JANUARY 29 2009. THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT. What are my taxes paying for? People who don't take care of themselves get whatever the fuck they want? I can't wear MOST shoes. My feet are growing another foot and I have to wait 9 months for the REFERRAL, thats bullshit.

What are my taxes going to? Where is my money going? Its bullshit. I am by no means a drain on the system, I haven't gone to a doctor in 3 years, I ONLY go when I'm sick and need something serious. Why the fuck should I have to wait 9 months for a referral and then who knows how long for the actual surgery!? BULLSHIT.

So what exactly am I suposed to do for the next 9 months, not wear shoes? Cram my feet into shoes that only make my bunions hurt or wear shoes with no support so my knees, ankles and back hurts? And because I live in Canada, have FULL coverage (through work) I CAN'T pay to have the medical procedure that I need to be able to function normally. BULLSHIT

Pissed,
Miss Can't-wait-for-America

lil' help

2008-04-13T17:39:00.002-07:00

Im torn. The first choice

or

thanks!